I’m going to go out on a limb and say something a lot of people think, but few dare to voice:
I don’t always like what I learn about God.
You can re-read the line as many times as you want. It will still read the same.
Why? There are a lot of things about God I don’t understand and when I don’t understand I get frustrated. I don’t understand how if God is the potter and we are the clay (and if he can make us into anything he wants), is it fair he creates some people for noble things and not others (Romans 9:20-22)? Is it even about fairness? God doesn’t function like we do. His ways and thoughts are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:9). God isn’t bound by our limited–and sinful–understanding of fairness.
If God chooses us versus us choosing God why doesn’t he choose everyone (Romans 8:28-30, Ephesians 1:4-6, Ephesians 1:10-12)? Maybe a better question is, why does he choose anyone at all (Romans 3:11-12)? None of us deserve his grace.
How could God harden Pharaoh’s heart then punish Pharaoh for his hard heart (Exodus 9:11-12)?
What does a person do with such verses? How do they fit together with a verse like, 2 Peter 3:9, “The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.”
Are you ready for the great answer I’ve been working on?
Drum roll please…
I don’t know.
Pretty anticlimactic, isn’t it?
In an odd way, I’m okay not knowing. I accept that God is greater than me, and that He knows more than I ever will. He can do things that seem impossible and somehow it all meshes together. I don’t think that when I get to heaven I’m going to stand before him with my list of questions. I think when I finally see him face to face I’ll fall down in worship fully knowing He is worthy and I am not.
I’m sorry if you think that’s a cop-out. I think that’s recognizing my proper place before God. I am the created, not the creator. I’m not meant to know everything. In an odd way, it’s none of my business.
Read the lyrics to this song by Steven Curtis Chapman. They really capture the truth.
God is God
“And the pain falls like a curtain on the things I once called certain and I have to say the words I fear the most. I just don’t know.
And the questions without answers come and paralyze the dancer. So I stand here on the stage afraid to move, afraid to fall, oh, but fall I must on this truth that my life has been formed from the dust.
God is God and I am not. I can only see a part of the picture He’s painting. God is God and I am man so I’ll never understand it all for only God is God
And the sky begins to thunder and I’m filled with awe and wonder ‘til the only burning question that remains is, who am I?
Can I form a single mountain? Take the stars in hand and count them? Can I even take a breath without God giving it to me? He is first and last before all that has been beyond all that will pass.
Oh, how great are the riches of His wisdom and knowledge. How unsearchable for to Him and through Him and from Him are all things.
So let us worship before the throne of the One who is worthy of worship alone”
That really sums it up. God is God and I am not. Case closed.