Seeking Him First

Like a lot of women I have many things on my ‘to do’ list.  Most recently I joined the NaNoWriMo, a contest of sorts to see if I can write a 50 000 word novel in one month.  A bit ambitious.

I try to set aside one on one time with my daughter, time with my husband and time as a family.  I love to cook and enjoy preparing meals.  I’ve also recently met some new women in the neighbourhood that I want to see more of and I’m part of an active women’s ministry team at our church.

So much to do, so little time.

I find myself getting frustrated.  I have a daily word count to meet for this novel thing, a full schedule, and a growing need for caffeinated beverages just to make it through the day.  On many days I may not act irate, but I do feel it.

I need more hours in my day.

Actually, that’s pretty wrong.  When I feel irate it’s because my focus is out of whack, not because I lack the time needed to accomplish what’s required.  I need to seek first God and his kingdom.

How does that look in my life?  It means getting up early to read my bible.  It means thinking about God and talking to him as the day goes on.  It’s being aware that what I say and how I say it to the kids in my home may one day affect their outlook on God, their outlook on life, and their sense of value as a person.

Seeking him first means knowing my priorities.  Time in the morning with God is a priority.  No matter how tired I am, I need that time.

Caring for the 5 children in and out of my home is a priority.  If I’m working on my ‘to do’ list and one of them needs me – I stop and see to them.

My family’s needs are a priority.  I need to take the time to care for them.

I’ve been doing most of this anyway, but after writing this blog I feel a shift in my attitude.  Instead of resenting the interruptions to my plans, I’m setting my plans aside and welcoming the questions, the detours and the visiting.  And do you know what I’ve found?  God has added the other things to me.  I’ve still managed to write and meet my word count.  I’m meeting my new friends for coffee.  I’m enjoying the kids.

No, He has not added more hours to my day.  The compromise has come from how I spend my leisure time.  There is less time in front of the television – but is that really a sacrifice?  Less time playing games on the computer – how useful are they anyway?

As I honor God in my daily choices he is helping me manage my time.  Thank you God!

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