I’m going to go out on a limb and say something a lot of people think, but few dare to voice:
I don’t always like what I learn about God.
You can re-read the line as many times as you want. It will still read the same. Why? There are a lot of things about God I don’t understand and when I don’t understand I get frustrated.
- I don’t understand how if God is the potter and we are the clay (and if He can make us into anything He wants), why does He make some people for noble things and not others (Romans 9:20-22)?
- If God chooses us versus us choosing God why doesn’t He choose everyone (Romans 8:28-30, Ephesians 1:4-6, Ephesians 1:10-12)?
- Maybe a better question is, why does He choose anyone at all (Romans 3:11-12)? None of us deserve His grace.
- How could God harden Pharaoh’s heart then punish Pharaoh for his hard heart (Exodus 9:11-12)?
- Is that fair? Is God fair? Is it even about fairness?
What does a person do with such verses? How do they fit together with a verse like, 2 Peter 3:9, “The Lord is not slow to fulfill his promise as some count slowness, but is patient toward you, not wishing that any should perish, but that all should reach repentance.”
Are you ready for the great answer I’ve been working on?
Drum roll please…
I don’t know.
Pretty anticlimactic, I know.
But God doesn’t function like we do. His ways and thoughts are higher than ours (Isaiah 55:9). God isn’t bound by our limited–and sinful–understanding of fairness.
In an odd way, I’m okay not knowing. I accept that God is greater than me, and that He knows more than I ever will. He can do things that seem impossible (and maybe even unfair) and somehow it all meshes together. I don’t think that when I get to heaven I’m going to stand before Him with my list of questions. I think when I finally see Him face to face I’ll fall down in worship fully knowing He is worthy and I am not.
That doesn’t mean I won’t study these difficult questions or do what I can to better understand His Word. It means that when I hit an impasse I will choose to trust God anyway.
Why? Because God is God and I am not. Case closed.
First posted Nov 4th, 2010